Ok....I am going to India and killing someone that works in the Sympatico call center. One more person tells me that my internet problems are related to not having a filter on my phone (which has been the case for 6 + years), I will scream.
Then I'm going to scream at the high speed people shortly too. What in hell? 4 days now. Actually this is day 5. I have things I need to do relating to my photography on the net, I should not be blogging from work, I should be doing from home, and yet I CAN'T!!!!
I emailed Not So Nice Guy last night and suggested that if he doesn't know what in hell he wants perhaps he shouldn't be dating, which insulted him, but I don't much care.
Truthfully, had it been anyone, I would be feeling like I am.
So back up go the walls, I've had it no more men. Enough. It's not worth it, I am in a better head space without them, and I will NOT be getting back on the horse any time soon. If ever. I sometimes feel like it's my lot in life to be alone, and so I'll just go with that.
I might be fabulous, wonderful, cute, funny, bla bla bla (or amazing as a male friend says) but apparently I scare men, intimidate them, and just am generally undesireable to anyone of the male species that *isn't* a friend.
So why bother?
Yep. At that place in my head right now. Each rejection takes a piece of me away, and makes me a blithering mess.
So maybe it's just better to avoid it altogether huh?