Monday, July 13, 2009

old children

So he's gone, off to Spain. Got a text this morning, assuming it'll be the last one until he gets back.

Is it possible to miss someone you never actually really see in person? I guess because I do miss him, miss seeing him....


Anyway, got ahold of the right person in terms of jobs in the UK with my company....I'm to contact him when I know what I'm doing, they'll know more what and who they are looking for.

This weekend was.....ridiculous?

My Troubled Friend, she's attempting to circle the wagons, trying to turn public opinion towards herself, and exclude me from everything that has to do with all our friends. I see it, and a few other people see it.

Problem with insecurities, especially in her case, they make you a narcissistic bitch. I said goodbye to everyone on Friday, including her, although not with much enthusiasm, and she apparently flew off the handle when I left, gesturing wildly towards me as I headed out the door.

I wasn't included in a BBQ dinner, everyone else I know was, and it's because of her. I have been assured by many that I have done nothing, that she is consistently deciding people don't have her back, and I happen to be the latest.

I don't play her game. I am not the type to be effusive, to over compliment, to make sure everyone is happy, to make sure everyone is included. I just am. Someone compared me to a fish, ironic considering I'm a pisces, because I'm always swimming to and fro.

It's not that I'm insensitive. It's not that I'm not a good friend. It's just that I'm not the type to go overboard. If people want to join in, well's ok......or I'll join other people.....but sometimes I don't decide what I'm going to do until the moment it's happening. That's just me.

She's a 43 year old child. So. Rising above, not going to cowtow to her bullshit like everyone else does, I've had enough. I ultimately don't care that I didn't get invited to the bbq, no biggie, what bothers me is how we are all supposed to make sure she knows about everything that's going on, but she purposely excludes me. Child.

Anyway. That's my story. It was a hideous weekend.

She's also trying to steal a guy from another friend of ours. Which is pretty shitty. She's about to lost that friend also.

CHildish bull. At least I've seen her for what she is....but it just makes me ill that it has to come to this. All because I've essentially backed off completely out of self-preservation.


Interpersonal relationships.

UK looks better and better. Because it's not HERE. And this crap isn't there.

Anyway, that was my weekend in a nutshell. Nice eh?


Gooseberried said...

I've wanted to move there since my junior year in college. ...

Auburn Kat said...

I don't understand people. A lot of times for whatever reason I am the only one not invited to things and I'm sick of it!!!

As for missing someone you have never met, I've definitely been there before!

myself said...

Gooseberried - I love the UK, I've been....ummmmm 6-7 times in my lifetime....I feel completely and utterly at home there, people get me.....or so I've always felt....

Auburn Kat - yeah, I don't know if it's that I don't actually ask, or give off that I don't care, but I'm being excluded. New friend time.

And the Brit I actually have met, just a long time ago (15 years).

Surfergrrl said...

i can totally relate to the friend thing. then you get to see on fb the events you weren't invited to via pictures. somedays I'd rather just not know.

Technodoll said...

Life is too short to waste time indulging a psychic vampire.

You gone good, girl :)