Although I'm feeling in a good place, pretty much, I have the major lonelies.
It's that time of the year again. The one that makes many singletons feel like complete & utter losers, because it's about family & love and all that shit I don't really have.
I've given my family a very hard time recently, rightly so in my opinion, they've been giving me a very hard time, either about the UK or moving, or money or whatever. Only my sister knows that I'm unemployed. My father would freak. Completely.
This is the scary part about being alone. Having no one to fall back on.
Year 10 being single at Xmas/New Year. Year 10 of being on my own.
I'll be staying home this year. With the move etc, although I have a free flat in London, I don't feel I should spend the money, and I was really hoping this wouldn't be the case, the aloneness, and the idea of going back there after what happened last year isn't a good thing.
Although being here isn't much better. Sigh.
My friend is coming over for breakkie, pressure to get this place up to speed (eek!) and then, that's all she wrote for me. I won't be doing anything else. Guess maybe I'll make myself a chicken.
This time of year always makes me sad.
Maybe someone out there can give me advice about a situation??? it's sort of related!
Couple weeks ago went out for breakfast with my friend, I saw her car thought she was already in the restaurant, rushed the door and this guy & I walked into each other. Looked up, way up (I'm tall, so this was a nice change) and the guy was quite cute, and held the door open for me.
Fast forward to being seated behind him, he was alone, and he kept checking me out. Did the same when he went to pay, shyly looking away.
So I asked the waitress about him, he's in a few times a week (so obviously single), usually alone or with male friends, branch manager for a bank. Oh so cute. Oh so shy. I like shy boys.
Anyway. She told me when he goes in etc etc etc and lo & behold, 2 weeks later, I saw him today.
But what in hell do I do? Does he remember checking me out. He looked at me very shyly again...then looked away. Like I told the waitress, it's not like I'm going to get the guts to walk up to the guy & give him my phone number (she said to give it to her lol!)
What do I do?
I feel like I'm in high school. Can you pass him a note for me? lol