See. I knew this would happen. I would upset myself. Again. As I do every time someone is of interest to me.
I can't solve his issues, I can't force him to do what he wants to and is too afraid to do. I can't make anything happen in any timeline, especially not mine.
So it's time to give up. Back off entirely. Forget about it. Forget about him. Because it's not giving me what I want.
Not that I'll get what I want anyway. But whatever. That's for another post. Or not. Whatever the case may be.
I'm so sad. So so so so sad.