trust??

How am I supposed to trust anyone anymore?

I don't know what to think.

My horoscope, although not something I believe in entirely, says that my romance has hit a brick wall, but not to worry, things aren't as they seem.

Dammitall, I fucking hope so.

I've said it once, I'll say it again, I do not like many men. Most I can take or leave, they don't make me fluttery, they don't make me giddy, and they don't do sweet fuck all for me.

This one does. This one seemed interested. This one pays attention and keeps in constant contact.

So how am I rewarded for meeting someone that lights a fire inside me, makes me feel beautiful, makes me feel good, and who I enjoy immensely?

With a complete slap in the face.

How can I trust what he's telling me? How can I trust what anyone tells me?

I just have no clue about anything anymore and I SWORE I wouldn't cry over this guy ever again, and yet, here I am.

I wish I could tell him, but I can't. I can't do it.