evil

So I'm an evil little witch, sitting at home with a big grin on my face yesterday.

Do I enjoy slapping down others?

Apparently.

In this case do I give a flying f*ck?

Nope!

You know, he's so angry because I caught him lying. It amuses me so. And you know what? I guarantee you when this one cools off, he'll turn up again like a bad penny.
Because his long distance love is...well, just that. Long distance.

Liars. Yeah not so much. Right up there with cheaters.

There's a line from a song I enjoy greatly, and it goes something like this "Maybe I'm naive, but I'm not f*cking stupid".

Great line.

And exactly what I'd love to say to his face, but I'm not going to have that chance!

So onto other things. Not like I'm bored in life at all, god, sleep is a commodity that I'm seriously lacking in. Not to mention, back to the gym, I've been a bad girl and haven't gone in a few weeks, however in my defense, this heat/humidity isn't helping at all. I don't even want to move, and breathing is an option. Add to that this lovely sinus infection (who gets colds/sinus infections in the DEAD OF SUMMER?), and well, I'm not in the mood to go to the gym. Luckily as well, I'm in no mood to eat, so I guess it works out huh?

Ok. I need to eat something (yeah I know I have no appetite but I force myself) and if I don't get coffee into me I'm going to pass out face down on my computer.

My girlfriend is convinced I'm going to meet someone through my photography. I guess we'll see. I've already got my next victims in my site for August 1st....Joshua Radin and his 2 opening acts (one of whom is Vanessa Carlton). Working on that one. Would love to photograph the Osheaga Festival(or whatever it's called) with Jack Johnson, but I doubt that sucker is happening any time soon, getting into the festival will be hard enough, but Jack Johnson is probably one of the main targets of most photographers. I'll see what I can do...I think a fellow blogger is a Jack fan....but I'm pulling a blank (Surfergrrrl?). Perhaps she has an in ;-)

On that note...I am going to go downstairs and get coffee....glorious coffee!!

ahahahaha

I'm nosey, rude and bored with my life apparently.

Yeah.

Ok.

That's why I haven't cleaned my house in eons. Don't get enough sleep. Etc etc etc.

But yeah. I'm bored with my life because I figured out some of his lies.

Woo hoo!

well I did it

I confronted the HH with everything. Not all of it, not the other person, but I confronted with things that weren't adding up.

Yep. He'd omitted things. He now thinks I'm nuts, claims to never have been interested (men, that's another subject all together, but is it me or are alot of them not self aware enough to realize the crap they do?).

Sorry, but with him in the past, and my past with my ex boyfriend, trust is something I don't have much of, especially since he and I were strangers to start with.

As for he and I, there is none, and that's that, and I'm fine with it. Hey after the confrontation situation I may never see him again.

So back to the drawing board. Except, there is no drawing board for me. I now go back to my disinterested non-dating self.

Have I mentioned I'm sick of being single? Not unhappy about it, but damned tired of it.

Sigh. Better get used to it, think it's gonna be a long long time before anything ever happens for me.

blog gremlins!

So I had written a post about my concert experience seeing Aretha Franklin. I cried. Nuff said. My friend S and I have what we refer to as the "Bucket List" of performers we both want to see before *they* die....cuz we're pretty young still and alot of them aren't. Aretha was on mine. I was enthralled to see her. She hasn't lost any of her range, she was absolutely amazing. Amazing. I cried. Me.

Anyhoodles. I was off this weekend to the Ottawa Blues Festival, where I photographed artists from the indie label Six Shooter Records. I love these guys. I missed the first artist, Christine Fellows, unfortunately, because the guy with the photo passes was late, but that's ok, this well made up for it.

Had a blast...albeit a hot one, it was 31 in Ottawa Saturday, and the stage is black, the amps are black, well, when standing in the photo pit, it's pretty damned nasty let me tell you.

Oh I'm also an idiot. Forgot my ear plugs. There was one artist, Elliott Brood, I was leaning over the amp, it was BLOWING air, just pumping it, I was frigging deaf.

Met some fabulous people...photographers, people there to see the artists, it was a great day all around.

So here's some photos. I've gotten through maybe 1/3 of everything I took, so far these are some favorites.

This is Luke Doucet - fabulous guitarist, teensy little guy, tiny, but his music is interesting, can't really pigeonhole it, his lyrics intelligent, I think it was him I enjoyed most (seen him in Montreal already, first foray into using my new camera back in March). Plays a Gretsch White Falcon...guitar is bigger then he is.

And this here is Melissa McClelland, wife of Luke Doucet, who plays guitar and sings backup in his band, although she is an artist signed to Six Shooter as well. She's beautiful, easy to photograph because she never looks bad, and all over a nice woman who plays a guitar NOT like a chick! (I have a photo of her smiling right at me). One of those gorgeous women that you just can't dislike because she's really a nice nice person, at the show in Montreal she kept me from going into the men's room. Oops. Grotty venue, I think her to this day.


This here is Justin Rutledge, nominated for a Juno this year (didn't win), man of the beautiful blue eyes (I realized this when I was crouched down on the ground under him, looking thru my viewfinder....stray thought "OMG those are the most gorgeous blue eyes!!!") He's cute in my opinon, but again pretty wee (although not as teensy as Luke). Beautiful, haunting voice. Alternative country I'd say, if you need to know what kind of music he plays.

And this here is the lead singer of NQ Arbuckle, a sort of twangy alt-country/rockabilly band, his name is Neville Quinlan. Redhead. I can't argue with redheads, although he went out with a ciggie in his mouth. I realized after photographing him that just about everyone had blue eyes...strange....

There are others, but you have to wait, I'm trying to get them all done tonight so I can send the link to the record company.....the finale as well, was fabulous....Martin Tielli played, he used to be in a band called the Rheostatics, which were known across Canada back in the day (if you like that sort of thing).

Anyhoo, I had so much fun. I need to do this again, I now have the photography bug. Big time!

and it's a new day

Weeee!

Great news! It's my friend Computer Geek's birthday this weekend and he's in town so he suggested we do breakfast. Well yay!

See CG works in the US most of the time, lives here, but works down there for a few weeks at a time. He's driving up right now. Nutcase.

So I had a coffee date last night and HH was quite interested to hear that I had gone on one. It wasn't good, but that's besides the point. No dude, I'm not sitting around waiting for you to straighten out your shit. And he knows about CG.

See, CG I would date in a heartbeat. We met when I was married, I think I was 27 and he was 21. A very mature 21, almost had a heart attack when I heard what a kid he was. And we got along like crazy from day one. When my marriage was ending, he had a crush on me and vice versa, but shitty timing... not sure if that is still the case for either of us, but we get along and have fun together (as in my F1 buddy), so I'm not gonna complain.

And I made sure HH knows all about the history. Yeah suffer like I suffered when I read what I did.

So it's shaping into a very interesting weekend so far. Very exciting. Even if I don't get press passes for the Ottawa Blues Fest, I have things to do here. No complaints (CG told me not to go to Ottawa, he's more fun....let's hear an awwwww.....).

Tired today, this cold is kicking the crap out of me, not to mention I can't sleep. Have a test at the hospital this afternoon so I'll sleep while I wait (and hopefully not miss it when they call my name!).

And then tonight, Aretha!

Yep. Good weekend starting tonight.

Back to work seeing as I'm leaving at 1:45!

chocolate

For a second I thought to myself that I'd like to do the Dove chocolate tasting that Technodoll and prin are enjoying.

Then I thought of the migraines.

Ok no maybe not. Considering it's sunny out and I have a migraine. Go figure.

Working hard today. My company has these STUPID forms from hell, all these acronyms that stand for something that's supposed to make sense and I have to fill out a 10 pages of tiny type...ARGHHH.

However got a lucky added bonus from a supplier....a ticket to see Aretha Franklin!!! Woooo hoooooo!!!! She is like, one of my absolute favorite artists, I can't even explain my current feeling of woot! Sadly, no photographs at Place des Arts! Booooo!

Things with the HH....hrmmmmmm.........was seen in person twice this past weekend, very email attentive, however....don't think as much as he likes me he's at that place. Maybe I'm wrong. To quote the dudes from BTO - "let it ride". And so I will.

Having some trouble with a girlfriend. Dunno why she's been so snotty with me recently, except that her ex is still weighing on her and I'm pretty sure causing her some heartache and insecurity. Except there is no need to take that out on me. Not at all. I've been nothing except nice and supportive, and she accused me of not wanting her to go somewhere with me, out of the blue.

Let's get something straight. I am not the type of woman to sit and plot evilly. I am sort of like a guy, I go thru life taking things as they are, face value, I don't sit and think of ways to hurt other people or make their lives difficult. It didn't even occur to me to keep her from going to this event, in fact, she never answered me if she wanted a lift there or not. The fault is hers. The apology will have to be hers too. I blew yesterday at her. I knew she would react about it, but I told her I won't discuss it until she's calmed down. Period. I'm walking away until she can discuss something rationally. Which, at this time I don't think she's capable of.

Accusing me. ME????? I give my friends the shirt off my goddamned back. I don't plot against them.

Sigh.

And people wonder why I sometimes prefer men to women for friends. THIS IS WHY!

Anyway. Back to work. And that form from hell. And the acronyms from hell. GAH!

Happy Canada Day

I am staying in today...however, happy happy to you all (ok that's a lie, I'm doing breakfast, that's it!)

Enjoy!